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80.  She's wishing that someone
would notice the insecurities
behind her smile & the tears
behind her eyes.

81.  Sometimes it takes pain to make
you a little smarter.

82.  The more you show your feelings,
the more people can hurt you.

83.  You asked me if I've always been this way.
And I'll tell you the truth, it's the way I was raised.
I spent my days learning to support myself.

84.  It's amazing how much you can put up with
from people you like
& how little you can take from
the people you don't.

85.  Don't think about how weak you are.
Think about how strong you're going to be.

86.  Maybe it's not about the
happy ending.
Maybe it's about the
story.

87.  It's the things that you can't see coming
that are strong enough to kill you.
It's in the moments when you're just about
to break but you don't quite.
You pull it together and slap on a smile,
even if it's the hardest thing
you'll ever do.

88.  She's standing on the line between giving up
& seeing how much more she can take.

89.  She was packed
She had a suitcase fullof noble intentions
She had a map
She had a straight face
She was hell bent on reinvention
& she was ready for the lonely

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70.  And when she finally forgets you,
don't you dare remember her.

71.  A girl's heart is an ocean full of secrets.
                            -Titanic

72.  Letting go isn't giving up.
It's accepting that some things aren't
meant to be.

73.  I'm mad at myself, not you.
I'm mad for always being nice.
I'm mad for always apologizing for things I didn't do.
I'm mad for getting attached.
I'm mad for depending on you.
I'm mad for wasting my time on you.
I'm mad for thinking about you.
& I'm mad for not hating you when I should.

74.  When the headphones are on,
all you have to worry about is if
the volume can go up any louder.

75.  I wonder when it'll be my day,
'cause I'm not too far from breaking down.
All I've got are screams inside but somehow
they come out in a smile, and I'm wondering
if I'll always feel this way.

76.  I guess that's what I thought;
that leaving something behind
would erase it from my memory forever
but it doesn't.
If something touches you that deeply,
it never goes away without a fight.

77.  & I am still trying to figure out the
exact moment
my life became so messed up.

78.  There hasn't been one day since you left
where I haven't fought the urge
to put you back in my life.

79.  It's either the bravest thing I've ever done
or the most idiotic,
and I suddenly realize how hard it is to
tell the difference.

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60.  Every night I lay in bed
thinking about you and her.
You're happpy now.
Isn't that what I wanted?
I guess I just wanted you to be happy while being
with me.

61.  I'm not afraid of heights.
I'm afraid of falling.
I'm not scared of the dark.
I'm scared of what's in it.
I'm not afraid to love.
I'm afraid of not being loved back.

62.  Rock bottom is a beautiful place to start.
Rise up to show the world your scars.

63.  Sometimes in order to go forward,
you have to go back.

64.  She completely fell for him and he
didn't even stumble.

65.  She moved on and I feel sorry for you because
she thought you were the most amazing
boy ever.  If she could have had any guy in
the world she would have picked you
above all others.  She thought you were different.
But now you're just another guy to her.

66.  You can only push a girl away for so long
untill she walks out of your life on her own.
So be careful and be sure it's what you want
because once she's gone, she's
not coming back.

67.  I cried myself to sleep that night, but I knew
how stupid I was being.  What was I expecting?
Why did I think that I would be the one to
change his ways?

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51.  I can't do this thing
called life without you here with me.

52.  It hurts to love someone and not be
loved in return, but what is most painful in to
love someone and never find the courage to
let the person know how you feel.

53.  The only reason people hold onto memories
so tight is because memories are the only thing that
don't change when everything else does.

54.  Before you give up on someone,
you have to remember why you're still
holding on.

55.  Trust me, I know exactly how it feels
to cry in the shower so no one can hear you.
And waiting for everyone to go to sleep so you
can fall apart. For everything to hurt so bad
you just want it all to end.
I know exactly how it feels.

56.  Sometimes we escape our destiny &
then realize that the destiny we escaped
was the one we wanted.

57.  I'm scared that when I die,
I won't know it's happening.
I'm equally scared that
I will find myself slipping away...
and I won't be able to hold on.

58.  Everyday I wonder why he saw me.
When a thousand other girls saw him.

59.  The best feeing is listening
to someone's heartbeat and
know that it's beating for nobody but you.

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41.  everyday I smile and act like
nothing's wrong.
It's called putting aside the shit
and being strong.

42.  & she's all alone again...
wiping the tears from her eyes
some days she feels like dying
some days it's not worth trying
she gets so sick of crying.

43.  I'm so sick and tired of acting like I'm fine
because truthfully, I'm not.
I can't even look at you without feeling so inscredibly sad.
You were the one person who was always supposed to
be there for me. My best friend; me everything.
And you ruined it all in that one moment.
I acted like it didn't hurt. And for a while I didn't think it did.
But the tears are here now and I realize that it hurt more then
anything in the world.

44.  Dear you,
You're probably thinking I've forgotten about you
but that's far from it. I have missed you every
waking day and my heart hurts but I'm getting better.
I continue to smile and go on without you.

45.  Only when time is running out are we brave.

46.  Take my hand and we'll make it, I swear.

47.  Don't cry because it's over,
smile because it happened.

48.  Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world
to do. But to hold it together when everyone else
would understand if you fell apart, that's
true strength.

49.  The greatest war ever fought is the war in the mind of a
teenage girl young and in love.
Between her mind screaming a warning telling her,
"There's no such thing as fairytales,"
and her heart quietly whispering,
"You never know..."

50.  Look how
pretty
she is when she
falls down.
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